Thursday, October 09, 2008

What a Journey Its Been - Back on Maui - Surprises - Serendipity

Where to start. First I must give thanks to my dad who passed a year ago who continues to feed my blood family. I give thanks for those that read this journal. An artist without an audience is anticlimactic, perhaps even the antithesis of creative expression - which while healing to express, does not further the intended communication. Which is only that if YOU leave some response to my copious creativity.

All the more thanks for those who do respond, and let me know that give a crap what I express, what I think about, blog about and (hopefully support in some fashion) the actions I take - as humble as they may be (have been) to make the world a better place. I feel your love. Thank you!

I must share that sometimes I feel so disconnected, lost in my own world given the one the media portrays is so horrific. With few friends calling to check in on me (as I mostly work home at the computer -- going thru a very unpublic phase. Sometimes I feel so uncared about (knowing full well that's not true), that I can't get beyond my depressed state - especially when I think of how I've spent my life, with focus on manifesting Creativity Cafe since 1980.



I think fondly of the V.A.R.I.O.U.S. teams, who on several occasions, were attracted to our mission (CCafe) and to my nonprofit that once was; V.A.R.I.O.U.S. to contribute their energies. I give thanks to the executives who believed in my mission and offered their support while in SF. One of them I noticed has been reading this blog! I'm warmed by seeing your name in myBlog roll! Its comforting to know you still have a space in your heart for the project (and me)? Last seen you were dedicated to the Dalai Lama. Such good work. Perhaps there is a deepening of our friendship, long abandoned on the horizon?

Even with the "failure" of my most magnanimous of visions and tireless dedication to birthing Creativity Cafe, the spending of countless hours to manifest something that has yet to see the light of day; beyond the temporary embrionic beginnings? I continue to think that Creativity Cafe will STILL have its day in the sun for everyone, some day. ( hey, I'm not dead yet!).

Certainly living on Maui is not going to further those visions, goals and dreams now hibernating deep within this servant of soul fire! But I also know God works in mysterious and delightful ways.... I will be producing television again at Akaku Maui Community Television and working with much more focus on the recording of my music, and the release finally of a professionally recorded (myself) CD of my soul to be called BORN OF FRIENDSHIP.

I know that given my copious gifts of creativity, art, science, and public service, that God is watching over me. I have yet to learn how to get out of my own way it seems, or the dreams might have been further along by now? I keep getting reminders from the universe, life's perks keep popping into my world reminding me to stay in the game. I am sure its thanks to the serendipity of my world and passionate following of my heart. You may not think the following story has any bearing on that, but to me, it is a sure sign that I am blessed:

I had to return my MacBook Pro three times to be repaired all because of a broken off earphone plug that got stuck in the earphone jack. Who would have imagined this would lead to a complete overhaul of my computer -- despite the obvious abuse from droppings that destroyed the screen, bent and buckled the casing, caused the optical and Hard drive to fail (twice), etc. Though it looked mangled, fortune stepped in and Apple not only repaired the small problem and made it work again, but supersized their customer service to me and refurbished the whole machine (as detaild in a previous post)!

The machine was back and forth twice to Apple just before my trip East. Then just before coming home to Maui four days ago, the Hard Drive died. I had been backing up somewhat so I was not really distressed about it. I figured if I send in on Thursday Oct. 2nd, for replacement - under warranty - of the HD (since they already fixed everything else despite the abuse), then I would have them send it back to my Maui address, but lo and behold, they never got that message!

Ten minutes before my sister (god bless her) showed up to take me to the airport (for the first time EVER in all my years of travel), the doorbell rang at Moms house (near Squirrel Heights, NJ) where I was all packed and ready to return home. I buzzed up my sister but it was not her, it was the delivery guy with my refurbished MacBook Pro - complete with the new HD. The machine that was turned around overnight by Apple and delivered in three days! Amazing timing. Just like last time I got it back. Its virtually a new machine now. I had to repack not expecting it until the next day over 6000 miles away! It was a real blessing for sure!!

Speaking of blessings, since I was born Jewish, I want to wish those of you who follow Judaism a Happy New Year. I am reminded since today is the holiest day, Yum Kippor, of the Jewish year that in 1989 I unknowingly booked the Wetlands Preserve on this sacred day in 1989 for the Arts for Social Change Awards. Attendance was off, but we still packed people in to the Wetlands Preserve in NYC to vote on the best images and multimedia created for the benefit of humanity by artists using state of the art computers in advertising agencies and production houses.

Speaking of houses, the world is changing faster than ever now. Lots of people are going to be facing the darkest of times thanks to capitalism built on greed, governments' projection of fear into the minds of the masses thanks to mass media "programming" that instantly telegraphs the dictates of the (corporate) dictators.

Do you ever get the feeling that we've been robbed of our ability to live in harmony with ourselves, nature and each other? Thanks to corporate will and economic slavery? Last time I heard, there were millions of people dying everyday of malnutrition and homelessness while corporate bosses take weekends at the spa with money from American taxpayers (i.e. the great bailout of 2008) that very well might lead to the great depression of 2009.

Obama will surely have his hands full unless the "Republicans" continue their track record of dirty tricks. Of course we know the problem is beyond the "Republicans and Democrats." That is why the Dow Jones Average is dropping like flys, polluted by a failed system driven by greed. It was predicted, but how is the world to recover, and how are the people to be directly represented in ways that negate corruption? IMHO that is what will happen when popular voting via personal computers and specialty venues dedicated to communication, education and edutainment-networking (ie Creativity Cafe) become a reality.

On a more positive note, I picked up my mail being held at the post office yesterday. I was happy to see Marilyn from my band and perhaps the only demonstrative friend I have left on Maui - on line. She came out just as I was opening this fantastic work of art, a book of photographs that was colorfully addressed to me by its creator, a comrad in creativity by the name of Julian Cash. I will have to write, thanking him for the great honoring of my work as the dedication letter he included pointed to as the reason for his gift. I will be sending him the demo CD of my songs, a work in progress that I will now embark to build upon to produce my first finished professional rendering of my songs and music from my soul. Some of which is already on the net as backgrounds to my videos.

Blessings and peace to you,
Shiloh

PS: Keep the faith that through our collective collaborations, hookups for mutual support and creative advancement, we can rebirth our world on a foundation of corporate transparency, peace filled global interaction and a prosperity enjoyed by every person on our planet. That is after all, what CREATIVITY.COM is being reserved for: to become - if I have anything to say about it, which I do - as a vehicle for economic and personal transformation. I have been lucky to be its stewarded after it was given me in 1995. Whew! More to come.

PPS: Now I must process my pictures, reconstruct my personal operating system on the NEW HD and rebuild my computer based "operations center" while my Maui Recording Studio, gets the focus of my energy. A Hui Ho! -PR-

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